What To Say?

The whole thing with the Moon... It... really, really is complicated. But with what has just happened... I know now completely. The feelings I had for her were real. I did love her. Yeah, past tense. I still care about her and want to be her friend... but I truly, and deeply am in love with Mystery Girl.

Even though I don't really want to be in a relationship or am looking to be in one for that matter, the fact remains; I truly do want to be with her.

I don't want to hold her back but... thinking about her being in a relationship with some other guy; it hurts a lot. And I'm jealous. I don't like it but... I want her to be happy. It means a lot to me for her to smile.

I really hate not being able to be with her or something. What is it I want? I don't even know. I too selfish for her. That sucks... I need to change. For the girl who probably doesn't even want to be with me.

I'm just being an idiot like always. It's me against the Universe.