The Trinity

And there came a day, a day unlike any other, when Earth's mightiest nerds found themselves united towards a common goal. On that day, S Comics was truly born — to bring! Through the years, their roster has prospered, changing many times, but their glory has never been denied! Heed the call, then — for now, the Trinity Rallies Up!

Yeah, we're getting back together! Me, Sergio and Devin. Seriously, it sounds gay but I love these guys. Yeah, when we're together, it's like.. haha we're a group of girls or something but we're that close. We're it. The Trinity!

We will change the world. Whoo!!

Met...

Met James Franco. That is all. :)

You don't know who he is? Shame on you and google him!

Lost Times but Never Wasted

You know... when I was in Fullerton, I could have easily gotten a girlfriend if I actually put myself out there. There was this girl on my floor who seriously liked me... until I saw her underwear and things got awkward between us. Long story for another day!

Then why did I never act on those feelings? Guess it was because of Mystery Girl. I don't regret those lost times but... I just feel curious to what could've happened. But I'm glad... kinda. I just want to.... gahhh........

I'm not in a rush. I really want to strengthen our friendship though. I want to make sure that I'll always be in her life and that she'll always be in mine. I'd really love for that to happen.

"I'll tell you you're right when you want

And if only you could see into me.

Oh when you're cold, I'll be there

Hold you tight to me.

Oh when you're low

I'll be there by your side, baby."

-Beachwood Sparks, "By Your Side"

Those lyrics really kinda capture what I feel. Maybe I should write a romance novel or something... OR maybe I shouldn't read Scott Pilgrim which is a love story. Yeah it's probably Scott Pilgrim making me want to write this stuff out.

Best Friends

A recent article stated that we shouldn't have best friends. That's bull... I wouldn't trade mine for the world, namely one. Ravedemon. Man, he seriously is my brother. My partner in crime. Together we're Ashirogi Muto!

Glad to have him back (I think). A lot to talk about. Bros gotta be bros, yo. Anyway... Glad he's coming back (I think he is... haha).

[Note: He was in Mexico for the past couple months.]

My Life

When I was seven years old, my father took me to go see Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace. Even though at this moment in time, I know the movie sucks, I came out of that theater amazed. I wanted to make movies.

I was in second grade. But then, throughout all my years through elementary and middle school, people made me think I would never be able to make it. I gave up on my dream. They made me think it was an impossible dream. I didn't want to make movies.

Yet, I had a talent. I was able to draw. I rarely shared what I drew for fear that people would once again make fun of me and taunt me. That changed in sophomore year when I met the Moon. I joined the anime club and she proposed to make a magazine featuring people's drawings and comics. The next day I asked my best friend to join me in making a comic and it exploded from there. When our story came out the Moon had loved it. She loved my drawings. For the first time I could remember, I was being truly and honestly praised. My parents didn't think much of my drawing nor did they think I had any big dreams because I never talked to them about it. But I drew more and more. Then everyone noticed what I could do.

Still, I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life. Until Mystery Girl, a person I'd already knew for a while, started to read my stuff. After that, I want to impress her and show her what I could do. It dawned on me that the only way to truly show her what I dreamt about or what could imagine was to make it visual, and breathing, and there. In other words... to make a movie. It was the first time in probably 8-9 years that I thought about making a movie. I decided to make it come true. To keep that promise. To reach for that goal.

Movies are more than just an interest.. they are a way of life for me. Just like comic books or anime/manga. Anyway, I'm preaching/babbling. My point is... There is something I'm going after. Boy... is a lot of work ahead of me. But.. hey, that's been my life.

Hm.....

I think I have to not be boring or something... Or maybe I overthink things. Anywho, talked to Mystery Girl today and glad things weren't awkward. And why am I typing this for the world to see? Seriously. Oh, right back to the topic at hand...

Well, damn. Seriously... haha she had to log off when my computer turned off and I had to switch laptops. *Deep sigh* lame. We didn't even really... talk that much. But the conversation started off with a boring statement anyway. Ugh.. I gotta stop being worried that I'll bore her and just talk to her. I just get so nervous and want to come off as cool or funny, ya know?

Lips quivering, butterflies in her stomach... I wish I could get that kind of reaction out of her. But I'm not that suave or smooth. Haha. She did say I was romantic though... or maybe she said that I was a romantic... hm...

Sure, the topic of Mystery Girl comes up a lot in my life. Truth is, if I didn't talk so much about; Scott Pilgrim, Inception, anime, comic books, funny things I saw and worries about college/adulthood.... then I guess most, if not all, of my comments/stati (plural of status?) would be about her. Reason for that is because well... I want to improve or advance our relationship. Gah.... yeah that's what this summer is all about. I mean, I don't expect to be her boyfriend or anything... I don't know... But what I do know is this: I want to be with her. I honestly do. What does that mean? I have no idea yet. But I want to be by her side and have her by mine. But I care too much about how she feels (or doesn't feel) to do anything about how I feel.

Am I an idiot for chasing after an impossible dream? I am striving to become a film director afterall. I just really want to be there, you know? Like... for as long as time lets me. Forever if I can. Yeah... I told her I have my whole life. I'd gladly spend the rest of my life getting to know her, or understanding her better or becoming the best guy friend she's ever had. I want that. I do. What happens if it doesn't work out? If love is true, it finds a way. I genuinely do... you know... that word. Haha (Not willing to say it yet until I've said it to her in person first.) So I'd be willing to change for her; I can't change being my nerdy self but who knows?

What I'm trying to say is that she's the most important thing in my life. How the heck did this post start from me wanting to not be boring in a one-on-one conversation to me saying that she's so important to me? Any ideas? No? Okay.

Anyway... *another sigh* I just want to be there. To be with her. Okay... it's a good thing I'm determined. I've been feeling scared and jealous a bit for the past month... and it's just been recently that I've felt that way. But I'm being dumb. Just be myself. Keep my head help up high and go for it! Whoo! But I do have my whole life for her so no rush right? Haha, damn this is pretty confusing stuff.

She makes me worried, confused, scared, terrrified, jealous, envious and more. Yet at the same time she makes me extremely happy, content and hopeful that everything's all right. She truly is the only person in the world who can make me feel this messed up inside.

First Post

I wanted to make a journal account of what goes on in my life. Why? Because I'm bored? Maybe. Are people interested? I have no idea. Can I use my life as material for a story? You bet I can! Well... hm.... Seriously, why're you reading this? I can't be that interesting. Haha, we'll see.

Later Days.